This morning, I was awakened by the loud sound of Inang's (our neighbor) radio. I dunno if she just thought of having an unannounced concert or what. I was deeply agitated because of the sudden disturbance on my slumber. This won't be the first, in fact it was the fourth time that our extremely "considerate" neighbor disrupted my peaceful sleep. I mean, what was she thinking? She's rocking to the music of "Awit ng Kabataan" at 6 o'clock in the morn as if she still belongs to the "kabataans"? Grrr... Inang badly needs the help of an EENT specialist.



Sounds weird but my mood changed as the next song played. I totally forgot about my disturbed sleep and suddenly, I felt sad. Perhaps that is the effect of a cheesy lovesong to someone who is not inlove. People of the world (as if anybody from the world would care to read my blog...haha) you read it right, I'm not inlove unlike what most of my friends thought me to be. And as of now, my record of "no boyriend since birth" is still clean and I think that won't be broken anytime soon. Like what my title clearly states, I am NOT inspired.



The song continued as well as my own drama. I can't understand why it felt like there's something missing. I felt so incomplete. Then I started singing "there's no meaning in my life, there's no inspiration". LOL... I sound so desperate, so emoooww. But no no no, I am not coz being an emo doesn't make sense to me, I actually think that they are just bunch of individuals who lack attention. (no offense guys). Anyways, short senti moments won't hurt so there I was emoting early in the morning.



Then I remembered my Ezt. It's been more than a month since he migrated to California and I shamelessly say that I miss him more than anything in this world! We still have contact to each other but it's nothing compared to our long talks when he's still here in the Philippines. I sorely miss bestfriend and I do wish that he'll be back. He made me feel happy and contented of just having a bestfriend 'coz he cares for me so much. I actually thought that we can stay like that forever. But now that he's gone, thinking about him made me feel sadder and more alone. I desperately need someone who will not leave me, someone who'll stand by me no matter what.



It's not that no one came, in fact there were few ghosts I mean guys that are "nagpaparamdam" and asking if they could court me. I always turn them down and say that it is still bawal and my parents forbid me to have relationships. But the truth is I'm not forbidden to have a boyfriend, it's just that I honestly feel that they aren't the one that I'm looking for. I don't want to rush things just to be in a relationship for I still believe that the right one will come at the right time. But mehn! I am just a girl, a girl longing for care and affection. And at times like this na tinotopak ako, I can't help but wish na dumating na agad "siya".

The song ended and another one starts playing. The song is perfect. I think this one suits me the best.

Labels: crazy little thing called love, so the drama